I'm so excited that my friend Madeleine has joined! Two is a start, and I have a feeling that our community may grow.
I didn't want to blog today, because I don't have anything exciting to report. In fact, I've been feeling down most of the day. This evening, however, as I went on a walk, I realized that my relationship with God isn't dependent on my feelings. It's easy to praise God when I'm in a "good place," and it's easy to turn to Him when life's storms come. If I want abide in Jesus, however, I need to walk with Him on the days when "nothing's really right, nothing's really wrong, I just feel grumpy." I'm comforted in knowing, that as a carpenter who didn't began what we think of as his ministry till 30, Jesus probably had some days like that too.
I agree with you one the "however, I need to walk with Him on the days when "nothing's really right, nothing's really wrong, I just feel grumpy"" part. I find that I actually need to talk to God more when I don't want to then when I do. I usually end up tired at the end of the day, and don't want to pray, don't want to think, and definitely don't want to spend the time awake talking to God about something that has been bothering me all day (usually some form of spiritual warfare that I am convinced will go away if I can go to sleep [ain't I smart?]). It's kind of ironic that I want God less when I need Him more and want Him more when I "need" (qualified, I feel I need) Him less. Well good luck (and BTW, everything that you told me about a prayer journal sort of thing has been true so far).
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